Today I am tired of being an adult. Today I don't want responsibilities. Today I want someone to take care of me, instead of me taking care of everyone else. Today I am burnt out.

Today I want to walk in the park. Today I want to feel the wind blowing in my hair. Today I want to mend. Today I want to put on my little kid shoes.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, I will be 31 again.

It's a delicate dance, the back and forth,
moving,
with a partner...
alone.

It's a tug of war, the back and forth
moving,
the struggle within, to
show, to
allow,
to feel.

it's a life
to build, full of
the heavy bricks of a fragile glass wall.

Relocation -

Sometimes, it really is as simple as moving locations, changing a small thing, and suddenly that slight change in degree gives you a complete change in perspective.

So thank you. Thank you for giving me ME back. Thank you for being good friends, thank you for laughter, thank you for sharing your strength. Thank you for giving me the courage to firmly shut the door.

So much has changed in the last week, and it seems like it was so easy, so quick. I brief swipe of a pen and you do start to believe that anything is possible. That it's more than just words, that it really is hope.

It also makes you realize how quickly your own life can change. If someone had told me how much would have changed in the last year, I don't think that I would have believed them. Life is full of bumps, and restarts and learning the same lessons until you figure out how to get it right. I really think that this year I am getting it right. It's the only goal that I have for this year, it's a year of personal growth and development. It can be so hard to say, I'm worth it, I deserve it, and even harder to believe it. This year is about following through on that belief.

I'm back in Mpls for the holidays, and while I love to be home, it's -9. That's just wrong and gross. That's January weather, not December weather. :(

I had my "fake 30th birthday" celebration last night, since I will be in NYC for the real thing. It was perfect, small and relaxed. Angela and I went to dinner at 112 Eatery (highly recommend this if you're in Mpls). Excellent meal, I loved the butternut squash with Gorgonzola and Maple Syrup. Then it was onto JJ's with Anna, Jason and Susie. It was wonderful to just hang out, have some beers and laugh. A lot. No fuss, no pretense. My kind of people, my kind of event.

I woke up this morning to a new world.

Nothing is impossible to a willing heart.

Congratulations President Obama!

My heart broke a little more today. I'm worried about you. Even though I can't see your face, I can feel your sadness on my soul.