I don't understand. Common phrase, right? But I really don't understand. Do we live in such a throw away society that people are just as likely to throw away relationships with people as we would a beverage container?
How can you think this doesn't matter? Your silence speaks volumes. How long was I fooled into thinking that I mattered, that knowing each other mattered? Is it a dislike of confrontation or is it really that it makes no difference. I refuse to call. I refuse to chase. I've spent too many years doing that. How pathetic did I look? All I wanted was friendship, my platonic soul mate, I thought ours was sibling like. That I never had to worry because you accepted me "as-is". What a relief it was to live in the comfort of that, the complete lack of judgement. I thought that no matter where life would take us, we would know each other. Now I wonder if I ever really knew you at all. The silence of words is more judgement then anything you ever could have said.

I'm sad, and I'm angry. I have so many things to say, but doubt it would matter.

I am trying to be adult. Some days I want to yell, some days cry.

And you, you just go on with your life like nothing happened. Like it doesn't even matter.