My skin is pink
where i have tried to scrub your memory away
if i can just erase that spot, that tiny little spec then
i will no longer be

raw

i am overexposed

words flash in my mind
lost in my head
never spoken. willed in for 8 years

then a line, an etching, a crack
facade crumbles
pouring out, tumbling over, whipping around, lashing me.

i am unable
to mend it.

I want spring!! I'm tired of the gray, I want SUN and warm weather. *sigh*. I know it's coming, we get a couple of days here and there that really feel like it's just around the corner, and then the wind kicks up and it's cold again. Maybe it's because winter was so mild, that it doesn't feel like spring even though it usually would.

After saying in January, that I wasn't headed back to Mpls until next December... I'm getting ready to go back in 3 weeks. HA! I can't escape it. It's the cheapest vacation I can find (kind of sad, right?) and it will be good to just relax. Some how that's always a little harder to do here, in the city that never sleeps. There's always something going on, your brain never stops. Even when I sleep, I still feel like I'm going a mile a minute.

My being is tired. It will be good to sit and just not do anything for 3 days..